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*.* Sea of Galilee *.*

Jesus Walks on the Sea

Immediately Jesus made His disciples get into the boat

and go before Him to the other side,

while He sent the multitudes away.

And when He had sent the multitudes away,

He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray.

Now when evening came, He was alone there.

But the boat was now in the middle of the sea,

tossed by the waves, for the wind was contrary.

Now in the fourth watch of the night

Jesus went to them,

walking on the sea.

And when the disciples saw Him

walking on the sea,

they were troubled, saying,

"It is a ghost!"

And they cried out for fear.

But immediately Jesus spoke to them,

saying, "Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid."

And Peter answered Him and said,

"Lord, if it is You,

command me to come to You on the water."

So He said, "Come."

And when Peter had come down

out of the boat,

he walked on the water to go to Jesus.

But when he saw that the wind was boisterous,

he was afraid;

and beginning to sink

he cried out, saying,

"Lord, save me!"

And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand

and caught him,

and said to him,

"O you of little faith,

why did you doubt?"

And when they got into the boat,

the wind ceased.

Then those who were in the boat

came and worshiped Him,

saying, "Truly You are the Son of God."

Matthew 14:22-33

Saturday, July 02, 2005

my old self is back...

have no idea why... ''ken the pessimist'' is back in action today... well...

thursday was ok.. Mr loo din come... Mr cha played stupid games... and we had bible study... sorry i forgot to bring the materials...

friday was bad... more of cha's stupid games... P.E.... had chemistry... bla bla... and after school basketball... but there's one thing....

cha's really stupid game is something like a matchmaking thingy.... your look at a pic and write what you think his or her name is, the age and character.... there's one whereby someone wrote job: pervert... hobbies: flasher.... you know what happened...? i saw someone putting that in my encouragement envelop.. i shant name who... but it's someone well known in this school... i went up and asked the person why.... what's the response i got....? cos you're a pervert what... im stunned... i dunno what to say.... at that moment i felt like tearing the person apart.. tearing the picture apart... tearing my envelop apart... it had became my discouragement corner....

it's bleeding inside.... am i damned to be friendless and lonely forever....? and right now in my tagboard someone is complaining that im boring.... well... let them be... i couldn't care... sometimes i just wanna shut myself from the outside world... just live in my own little universe.... for those who knew me for some time... you guy know im fond of living in my own world.... blissfully unaware of what is happening around me... whereby the whole universe is just me... the wonders of nature and the Creator.... but somehow i know it's impossible... He created us for fellowship.... i cant just close my doors on the world... i know i cant live in little ken lim's planet anymore... i have to wake up.... i cant afford to dream on in lala land... but these are the times i rather choose to sleep.... sweet dreams of milk and honey flowing through.... keeping evil out and only me and God are allowed in....

i am supposed to be watchful of my actions... my gigantic actions which will cause everybody in the area to turn and look at me... because i reflect His glory as a christian.... but why should i be binded by such things...? why cant i be free and do things i want....? i feel like a jail bird...

someone once said this... "friends are the bacon bits in the salad of life".... how come i keep eating the bitter part... and there doesn't seem to be any bacon in my salad...? what is it in my that drive the becon bits away...? why am i the one stuck in the middle, all alone, not knowing what to do....? how come i just cant put this load off my shoulder....? i am seriuosly tired of all this rubbish....

i dun wanna be alone... i seriously need someone to be there for me.... to care for me.... to listen to my cries... to be the shoulder for me to cry on.... i need hugs... plenty of hugs.... i've been a supporting pillar to many... but who shall be mine...? i dun think anyone...

as you read this you may find it boring.... tell you what... i dun care... i dun care what the world thinks about me... im gonna be alright....

argh heck... why should i care anyway....

today's colour: i feel like fluxing someone.... how i wish to like live in this small little world of my own once more...

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