*.* Sea of Galilee *.*
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im back...
after 1 week... first my events... den my emotions... here goes...sunday... din manage to wake up for WoE... din go tuition... went grandma house... long long time never go le...monday had school... after that went home... nothing much... evn if something had happen i have forgotten about it...tuesday had school... after school the guys went soccer... again... i went to work with wee kiat... slacker job... $7 per hour... sit in office copy address onto a form... that simple... worked for 6 hours.. in the end ran out of forms... went home...wednesday reported back to work... copied again... finished it by 2... sat down and talked with joanne's grandma to 3... always find it fun to sit down with an experienced person and learn about his or her past... boss haven prepare the stuff needed for us to work on... so we slack, and still get pay... lol.... great job... only God can give us this kinda job... slacker and yet good pay... thank you Lord...thursday had meeting... whole morning rotted at home... met at 5 with zhizhi and wee kiat to plan for cell group... after that went home... too tired to hang out...friday qin ching came my house to practice guitar... for cell group... she's leading praise and worship... did a rather good job too... /no1 for qin ching... my di's friends also came over for mahjong... lol... nothing much...saturday went to church... went there early to practice guitar... do some last min practice... after that clerence and alex came... had fun during cell... they laugh till peng... can see very clear that clerence and alex's face go really red... had real fun... tried my best during praise and worship... got abit messed up... but im improving... jia you ken!!after that was sermon... they have live recording!! i forgot!! din gel up my hair!! oh no... ah well... i still look good... at least to God... =p... pastor shared about goodness... i trust derek to post up on zealot's blog... please refer for any questions...dinner... and i can see 2 people fighting cold war... was blessed with dinner... yayayay!! i love zealot... *hugs*on the way home... was trying to solve conflicts between 2 old friends... din go well in the end... hope they will be understanding...now... for my emotions.....choppy... mixed up... confused inside... my childishness may be a joy to some... but also irritation to others...? so what should i be...? a hypocrite...? kee siao in one group and act cool act mature in another...? im not sure what this is... but i feel this is lying... hypocrtism... dunno how to spell... ah well... just be myself...even as i work... i felt tireness... creeped up on me... lingered in me... im falling down... dragging into the abyss of destruction... neglecting God... have to pull myself back up...i feel so confused now... support is everywhere... but how come i cant find one to lean on...? do i not trust the stability of the supports...? i know who to go to when im down... but why am i not going...? what am i doing...? as i layed by my bed... allowing the river of emotions to flow... riding back the chain of memories... experiencing the pain, joy, laughter, peace, anger... all yet once again... recalling betrayals, encouragements, hurts, love...and i recalled a song... so i look to you... the prechorus... "i look into the skies above, wondering how my life have changed, wondering what the Lord have done for me." i let the memories float back into my mind... and i began to cry... from before i accepted christ... till now... look at how my life have changed!! soso much... so much he have done for me... my tears flowed... thank you Lord...i wanted to post my personal testimony here... but it'll be long... and i prefer to share in person... wanna know come find me....so, current emotion...? perplexed... let me sort out my emotions...today's colour: perplexed...
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{Lift up your eyes, all you Heavens, and Worship}
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