Saturday, August 19, 2006
bottles, bottles of clear liquid...
tears have been flowing alot for me these days... devil hates me... he shoots me hard... ah well, im still standing... =)on thursday my brother was in school at around 8 pm, he was walking round the school with some friends... he fell into a hole about 1/3 size of a normal classroon, one storey high... he fractured his spine, the 5th column from the top... it was dented in with a hairline fracture...on friday he was refered to hospital, need to be warded... i went there after school to visit him, in my uniform... as i saw him lying on the bed, tears trickled down my cheeks unknowingly... my own biological brother, suffering the pain... cant take it, and tears rolled down... i wiped if off before anyone could see it...after that my brother went for a CT scan, he felt severe giddiness.... after the doctors checked on him, he couldn't take it, he cried... my mum consoled him, saying that it's normal to feel giddy, cos he ate medicine on an empty stomach, therefore felt giddiness, not that his life is in peril... what the adults do not understand is that it's not that my brother's worried about his life coming to an end... it's that he cant take the pain... as i see him cry, i began to weep out bitterly too... the agony he's going through... it pains my heart as a brother... i cant take it... even when my mum comes and comfort me, i cant stop... i cant bear to see my brother suffering in pain... it hurts me so... ah well... tears flowed freely... hai...went home and showered... cried a little in the shower... after that went with my dad back to the hospital, camped there overnight looking after him... slept very little.... next morning went home at around 10... showered, changed, back to hospital... now with derek, sabrina, shara, qin ching, rongjun, yingmei... went to visit him... prayer for him, doctor came in with news that his bone is stable... cast for 12 weeks can liao, dun need operation... that's good... after that left for cell group...during cell group i stabbed my toe against needles... ken quak's core group ice breaker includes needles, and they dropped in on the floor... i cant see it against the carpet, so i stabbed my toe against one... ouch... went out, found out that the needle broke in my toe, and it really hurts... went down, mr chin got me a sissors, i began to scrape out the flesh around the needle, den when i hit the needle, using a nail clipper, pulled out the needle... thanks lisa jiejie for the nail clipper, thanks xiangshu for the sissors, and thank you Lord for the valuable experience...during snl, i cried again... during worship, i poured myself out to God... i couldn't take it... hai... 4th time im crying...man, i am a crybaby!! 4 times in 2 days... hai... im really worried about my brother... but what to do... what's done is done... pray for healing loh..today's colour: tears continue to flow...
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