+ I will keep my eyes upon Jesus +

*.* Sea of Galilee *.*

Jesus Walks on the Sea

Immediately Jesus made His disciples get into the boat

and go before Him to the other side,

while He sent the multitudes away.

And when He had sent the multitudes away,

He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray.

Now when evening came, He was alone there.

But the boat was now in the middle of the sea,

tossed by the waves, for the wind was contrary.

Now in the fourth watch of the night

Jesus went to them,

walking on the sea.

And when the disciples saw Him

walking on the sea,

they were troubled, saying,

"It is a ghost!"

And they cried out for fear.

But immediately Jesus spoke to them,

saying, "Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid."

And Peter answered Him and said,

"Lord, if it is You,

command me to come to You on the water."

So He said, "Come."

And when Peter had come down

out of the boat,

he walked on the water to go to Jesus.

But when he saw that the wind was boisterous,

he was afraid;

and beginning to sink

he cried out, saying,

"Lord, save me!"

And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand

and caught him,

and said to him,

"O you of little faith,

why did you doubt?"

And when they got into the boat,

the wind ceased.

Then those who were in the boat

came and worshiped Him,

saying, "Truly You are the Son of God."

Matthew 14:22-33

Saturday, September 23, 2006

i am weary...

i dun think you guys know, but i've been crying every single day... tears just flow even when i stare into space... ah well...

my granduncle was dignosed with lung cancer a couple of months back... he refused treatment, and the cancer cells spread... his brain is now affected, which affects the right side of his body, causing disfunctioning... he fell down and broke his pelvis... was admitted to hospital...

i was having coffee with him at the hospital, and suddenly he dropped his cup... at that split second he lost control of his arm... thank God he regained control before he spilled any coffee on his lap... hai...

doctor said that he need treatment.. radioteraphy and i dunno what else... but the doctors are considering the actions, as he does not have long left...

2 months, that's what they say... hai...

happier things... i planned to go east coast on friday, cell group people went there to relax cos the prelims was over... i went home, told my grandma that i'll be out the whole day... she ask me if im accompanying her to the see the doctor in the evening, i said most probably not... she shot me one sentence..

"your friends so important meh...? more important than me..?"

i sian diao... called liangzhi and told him im sorry, cant make it for the outing.... went to my bedroom to cry... totally fed up... i wanna relax, i need a break, but im not given one... bounded by my family... hai...

ok, even happier things... after that i wept and napped... after that i woke up, used the computer... complained about what happened to my aunt over msn, how i was "emotionally blackmailed"... after awhile there was a knock on the door... i opened, there stood a man in a biker's helmet.. was astonished, told him i never order anything, but he says the address is correct... i opened the door, took the large super supreme, bottle of pepsi and a loaf of garlic bread... signed the invoice, i asked him how much... he told me it's already paid... woah... God's blessing for a sad soul... God loves me man...

later i found out that it was my aunt who bought me the pizza... haha... went to see the docs with my grandma, my aunt joined us later on and asked me about the pizza... lol, God worked through her to bless me... she also bought me speakers for my mp3 as well as headsets for the computer... meaning, i can bug people on msn with voice clips again... muahahaha...

today went to church, cried out like never before... even when the pastor started talking, my tears are still flowing silently... haha... im a crybaby!!

after that dinner, home, here i am typing... rawr... im hungry... bleahz..

today's colour: will God cry with me..?

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