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Monday, March 28, 2005

argh.... stupid com....

dunno what my dad did... after he touch the com, i cant really access the internet... so sad.... can only access after the com is switched on for like, 3 hours...? hmmm.... what's wrong.... go trendmicro later on.....

monday went to school.... my gosh... so much homework!! din finish.... of all homework i go pia mr loo one... cos i know im gonna get it if i dun do... what's more he biased against me.... oh well... im dead.... gonna flunk DnT under him.....

tuesday.... cant remember much.... oh no.... my poor memory.... it stinks..... all i remember is i slept late to do DnT... again....

wednesday woke up at 5.30... woke zhi up den he go back to sleep... hahz... he too tired liaoz.... den sabrina took over him..... cant remember much too.....

thursday was sports day.... had full contact rugby in the morning.... i one person go cheong den my team mates all stand at the end look at me run.... oh no!! mati liaoz lahz.... hhaz... kena pile.... in the afternoon go liang zhi house first.... along with some other ppl.... after that went for the sports day.... bored nia.....

friday was good friday..... went to church to watch alice in singapore land.... after that went for dinner with cell.... den each go their own ways.... i went to century play pool with danny they all....

at century saw soon heng and alvin.... they were with friends.... den in the end went out cos got friends underage.... too bad..... danny, ken, yong quan and... erm.... what's his name...? hahz... forgot again... whatever....

sat went for nite life..... they shown passion of the christ..... pastor daniel is goin to jail.... hahz.... saw halfway need to go off le.... grandma birthday....

went to the same old place to eat.... after everything went with papa to sambawang's blue heaven bar.... again.... play pool drink beer and flirt girls....

my pool skills improved after mr roy trained me up.... woohoo....

sunday had tuition.... den my family went to east coast park to play... i din go.... LAZY..... hahz....

yeah.... nothing much to say.... got to run....

today's colour: argh.... stupid com....

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Monday, March 21, 2005

planet shakers!!

had a super conference thur and fri.... woohoo.... learnt a lot of new things.... engaging the cross... engaging the faith.... engaging the lots of things... at least 500 came back to the lord.... now i seriously regret din pull peiyi and alex there... but too bad.... i'll keep them in prayer....

planet shakers were great.... they rock the world.... i almost died of asthma... jumped to much.... the way they bring us to the lord... the way they invited his presence... is just awesome....

i was sitting there... alone with God.... people who know me are around me.... but i felt friendless... why....? hmmm.... isolation feeling back again... until cynthia offered me sweets.... felt rather touched.... i felt so invisible... and yet she saw me....? thanks cynthia.... for remembering my presence....

stayed over at my aunt's house on thursday night.... those reading this... whatever you do.... PLEASE.... dun tell me sis.... she is going to kill both me and my aunt when she found out this.... super pampered and will get jealous....

knowing about my stay, my aunt bought durians to welcome me.... bought supper in case im hungry.... prepared a bed right in front of a stero so i can listen to music while i sleep.... and fridge access 24 hours a day.... ice cream cones and free flow of drinks whenever i want.... gave me a 1 liter cup full of reibena... hahz... felt love and have loads of attention.... that's why i chose her over our cell group.....

next night went home on the church bus.... can you imagine.... bus was jammed packed.... people have to stand.... and you're sitting alone...? this is way not cool.... meaning people are isolating you.... i was only noticed twice... once by li khoon cos she saw a book mark she made 2 years ago in my bible.... and second was by joel ho when he wanted the seat to sleep.... oh well.... ppl hate me... what to do...? i dun belong in this world anyway....

sat went to sentosa.... get sun burnt... woohoo.... once again it's me who is cooking the bee hoon... always me one lehz.... first fried noodles... den fried rice... now bee hoon?! can choose someone else anot.... i know my cooking nice also no need like that one mahz... hahz... just jokin... my cooking is just average.....

rushed to church.... 6 guys shower also faster den 2 girls... aiyo.... teck soon like very agitated...? fed up with us.... i can see from his face... but why...? dun wanna care about him.... pastor tamanon came... dunno how to spell his name.... shared about his blood cancer and how he got cured.... and how he got cured of his high iron level in his body.... claiming that the buzzer went off when he step through the metal scanner in airports.... hahz...

today's colour: pink with health!! need to exercise more to loose weight....

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Thursday, March 17, 2005

serious fun!! at the lan shop again....

can you guys believe it...? i actually got a phone call from kelvin... saying that the lan shop near his house actually wants my RO server... how cool is that...? have to take time to prepare my server... and pull it all back together...

tuesday went out with alex.... again to hougang to play lan.... completed serious sam 2!! woohoo!! took hell long time... think 4 hours.... eyes so tired.... finally defeated the boss.... after about more than 10 thousand monsters came rushing... after that i walked him home....

poor guy.... actually alex is a retained student.... saw the same textbook for 3 years... 16 year old and still in sec 1.... how i pray that he will put in effort and at least get an 'N' lvl cert.... and how i miss his sister celine.... went over to aust for studies.... and she din inform me.... was so heart brokened when i heard the news from alex.... now she's back... asked her how come she never informed me...? she told me that she did not have the time... while alex told me that she did not want me to know.... haiz... who shall i believe....?

2 songs that make me think of her.... simple love by jay chou.... as well as gu dan bei ban qiu by ocean.... was wondering how she was doin down under every night.... scared the weather's too hot... scared she's lonely... scared she'll pick up bad habits.... im so worried... so glad that she's back.... miss her so....

got back home and liang zhi ask me if i want to have a cell lunch.... i said ok... and he made me plan for it.... im like... oh my gosh!! have to plan pizza... plan what to do... play mahjong and watch shutter... bla bla.... hahz... lucky i pulled everything together in time....

wednesday was way way way way WAY cool.... qin ching headed to my house.... to burn cds... in the end din burn.... and we were still late for the lunch meet.... headed to lot 1 to buy plastic cups... saw jia lin... she was like... dao me...? hahz... den i realize she din notice me.... too bad... im off.... i actually ordered the pizza with my mobile in ntuc... well... managed to get the order through.... it's only when we boarded the train and pulling into BB mrt station did we remember about the money.... freaked us all out..... panicked and digging our pockets for money... in the end we have enough.... angela forked out 20... youngly 10... me 14.... siew ling 4.... wee kiat 2.... liang zhi 10.... sabrina 5.... shara 5.... and alvin 10... exactly $70... phew... and lucky shara came earlier den the delivery man.... or else we DEAD....

had so much fun... ate our fill.... 4 large pizzas divided by 11 people... i have 5 slices!! getting fatter.... after that we watched shutter... well... scary it is... rong jun was freaked out... angela kept screaming.... lucky yong quan not here.... or else for the whole movie you'll hear ''oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, OH MY GOD!!!'' hhaz... screamed so much... after that... as planned... we played mahjong!! my set again.... we tought youngly as well as rong jun.... shara is goin to kill us for doin that....

after everything.... the said they wanted to go machmaster... oh boy.... need to spend more money... youngly went home to grab 1 blue note... come macdonalds to change to 5 red notes... den we play!! along with ken, yong quan, derek.... you know who.... warcraft... and i was left out... CS... and im free frag.... gunbound... and i kena trashed by ken quak.... argh....

after that they left... den me, zhi, alvin and youngly played warcraft..... 2 on 2.... pia like hell.... me and zhi one team... alvin and youngly the other team.... we built men like crazy... i built watch towers... and upgraded them to speed seight towers.... woohoo.... no enemy can even come near my base.... all die before reaching... deal so much damage is such little time... of cos me and liang zhi won.... with corrdination.... chiong ar!! den long zong pia... hahz.... im the top fragger....so happy....

angela was sitting beside liang zhi watch us playing.... poor her.... she could go home... but chose to accompany us.... hahz...

when im with my friends... loosing myself... having fun... the wierd dark feeling is gone.... hmmm.... maybe i should hang around my cell more...

went home... so tired... felt like bloggin... so blogged.... and im adding one more prayer request... hope God will ans them.....

today's colour: having friends to stay with you through thick and thin is so great.... special thanks to liang zhi and celine who gave flavours to my life.... love ya....

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

what's missing...? and what's this....?

i've been having these wierd thought lately.... wierd dreams.... strange visions..... like... and of these are real...? or not....? i cant figure out the puzzle... and hope to get this out of my mind.... make things as simple and clean as possible.... and live a child's life....

sunday was the usual.... went over to have tuition.... but we were dead unlucky.... cought in a middle of a quarrel between my tuition teacher's wife and their children.... screaming here and there.... caning sounds.... cries of denise and jonathan can be heard a km away.... it's horrible... we don't even dare to go out of the room even when tuition is over.... haiz... why....

afternoon went out to have lunch with mum, dad, and nat.... don din come cos he just woke up... well.... nothing much actually....

evening we went to granny's house... had dinner... talked... and i washed the dishes... that's why i got an extra can of coke as well as 2 more pieces of dairy farm chocolate.... oh boy.... my family really knows how to make me fat....

monday was a bad day for mr michael tjin.... came over to watch no way out.... had so much fun... cooked instant noodles... put the pot in front... and ate from there... barbarians united.... watch the bloody and gruesome matches... and he made a stupid comment.... beer, cards, and more beer!! upon hearing that, i really brought out beer.... he rejected it... hahz.... so he wanted to go down and grab root beer instead.... to our atonishment.... michael's shoes got stolen.. and it's his dad's... oh well... he wore my slippers back home..... den i slept.... woke up and have lunch... slept again... woke up to have dinner.... and blog.... end of story....

something is missing in my life.... what's that...? i felt an emptiness in my heart.... but i don't know where it exactly came from.... and this evil energy have been replacing this hole.... think i better seek help.... and all these thoughts.... where are they coming from....? making me so uneasy.... so many wierd dreams.... how i hope i can just throw them away.... i don't want any of these.... i just wanna be a niave kid again.... feeling so simple and clean....

today's colour: why purple...? i don't know.... and i don't think i wanna know....

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Saturday, March 12, 2005

what's this energy....?

thursday gave command... gabra abit... aiyo.. so pai seh... bo bian.... blur den die liao...

miss seah piled us with homework... ok lahz... manageable.... madam yaw also got give... so did punitha... so did mr danny cha... in fact... only chinese and P.E. no homework.... hahz... sian 1/2....

friday was cross counrty at jurong park... have to go there alone... daddy not driving... went with michael and mu... i din run... reported asthma... hahz.... cheater.... alvin din run in the first place.... den after a long while he go run up.... and managed to grab a 20th.... if he ran in on time.... he would have got 1st... stupid nia... den one guy's lorry's licence plate and mirror kena hit by some guy and broke... hahz... the school compenstating i guess....

stupid jia lin... throw stones at me... den we pour water on her... hahz... so wasteful.... they used safety pins and poke holes in the bottle caps.... hold the bottles in front of their balls... and sprayed.... these guys are digusting man.... den i saw sherry and 2 others girls... bowing their heads and saying something.... can i assume they are praying....? hmmm.... better go ask her.... asked for safety pins that are no longer in use.... chained them together to make a neck piece....

after that i went home... michael went for a cremation of a friend's father.... sad death... happens all of a sudden.... i went home... with sing hua, melvin, xiao qing and another gal... dunno her name.... and if i spell your name wrongly... i am sincerely sorry.... well... talked.... that's all....

btw i did a survey.... 9 out of 10 girls think they are FAT... why...? asked a lot of ppl... if they find peiyi fat.... well, peiyi, good news... out of 30 people, 22 people say you're not fat, 7 say you a little, 30 say you're cute, and 31 say you dun need to lose weight.... the 1 is me....

went home... found a padlock.... hooked it onto my neck piece... woo hoo.... a bling bling.... nice nice.... wore out to meet mike at bt timah... go play lan... played serious.... this time played till very far... den he have to go home... well... too bad.... had loads of fun... but spent $4.... im getting ore and more broke....

saturday no cell.... no camp... nothing.... so i slacked at home till 4... went out for church... i felt rather uneasy... felt like something wrong.... oh well.... din care... just went on...

today church very packed.... cos got alot of brigade ppl.... all from camp came here for snl... i just worship like mad.... dun care.... dunno if got ppl finding me siao....?

well... pastor did a good job... preached well.... talking about fear... really hit the point... at least mine... also kena suan by alot of ppl wth my home made bling bling.... john cena... hahz....

after that went to have dinner... only 3 ppl... me, shara and yongli... hahz... very stupid.... lamed all the way.... shara cant take me anymore.... first time order came so fast.... finished fast... and went home fast.... boarded the bus at 8.. wow... so early.... came home early.....

on the way home.... i felt wierd again.... dunno why... got this energy... this power... feeling of hitting someone.... causing major destruction and injury.... why....? what's this strength and energy...? it felt... felt so dark....

today's colour: i dunno why.... just feel so dark... as if some kind of energy surrounding me....

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

serious sam... seriously fun...

woke up on monday and went to school... pretty much normal.... din bring for show and tell... again....

tuesday was fun!! miss seah din come... 3 free periods... cos pg also she bao... den she din come... so sad.... 3 free periods sia... but rather boring... jie ting used this period to talk about our class tee... finally come to a conclusion.... a rather plain polo tee... but it's fine...

after school liang zhi jio me go play warcraft... fine... long time never play liaoz.. play play abit loh... went there... derek cheated me $1... sian diao... den dun care loh... nvm.. close one eye... soon after ken and the other came.... long zong go pia warcraft liaoz...

the first campaign was lost in less den 10 min... diao?!?! cos ken died once... den bo bian.... 2nd campaign i play halfway kena d/c.... suay sia!! den i go play serious sam... 1 person play borin sia... but dun care... just play... den play till sian liao... go play gunbound.... play till they completed the campaign.... they say wanna play serious... cos they see me play very fun... ok... long zong 8 ppl pia serious... sia la... so cool when got 7 other players playing with you... and stupid derek!!! he go put his appearence as a monster!!! den go shoot him nia... hhaz... when we play we shout here shout there... gia gia gia!! bull come liao!! shoot shoot!!! team fall back!! headless bomber coming!!! WWWWOOOOO!!!! hahz.... laugh till i peng... so fun sia.... den check time... 10 something liaoz!?!?!

after that we went for supper... prata... oh my goodness.... shouldn't have ordered egg and onion prata... cant stop fartin... hahz... had so much fun... reached home only at around 12... first time go out so late on a school day....

wednesday nothing much.... got health check.... that's all... im gonna shout command on thursday!! woohoo!!! after 4 years, i finally got a chance!! gonna treasure it man... cos this is my first time... as well as BB's last time for the year....

today's colour: so tired... wanna sleep.... dunno why... maybe cos slept late on tue night....?

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Monday, March 07, 2005

fishing...

friday din do much... din go bb cos have to do punita's work.... haiz.... starting to hate physics....

den sat din go cell and church cos going out with family... double haiz... miss you guys lots.... teck soon, alvin, liang zhi, siew ling, wee kiat, sabrina, xuele, rong jun, yong li, angela, qin ching.... miss you!!

met up with my kindergarden friend... went together with their family for a fishing trip.... i still remembered how to play.... run here run there... jump here jump there.... remembered we even hugged once... hahz... den on saturday saw her... wow... she grown so much cuter!!! ah!! faint... i found myself staring at her beauty....

went to a kelong... chinese one... all chinese... got about 200 houses on wooden poles... even got a school on the kelong.... wonder how to go school.... swim...?

went to a floating fish farm.... went there by boat... i stood at the side... suspending by a piece of rope... woohoo!! cool man!! got our lines... started fishing!! my friend cought a big one!! think about 30 to 40 cm long... very very big... cook den immedietly eat... woohoo!! super fresh!!

reached home at about 12.... still thinking about her.... hahz... oh well...

den sunday go tuition... took out the teacher's jungle king and play.... muhahaha.... just a small dagger... but very sharp.... and dangerous....

after that talked online with peiyi... found out that she's a backslide... wow!! jumpped out of my seat stright away... im gonna bring her back... pray for her please...? wan her to see how much love he can give.... talk with her over msn halfway my internet screwed up.... ouch.... haiz... too bad... waiting for her reply....

kena bluff by liang zhi to a seminar... about freedom from sins and healing and such... well... laughed abit.... some parts boring.... but ok lahz... not bad....

now back at home slacking.... so tired.... still have DnT to do... or Loo is coming after my blood....

today's colour: im starting to love the sea....

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Friday, March 04, 2005

tired....

sunday was the same... tuition.... cant remember much... stayed at home and rot....

monday was fun... got hostar to lend me a cantonese game.... my mum told me to get it to improve my chinese.... and you guys know how bad my chinese is.... can get 20% overall.... got it... went home and try... played for 3 hours straight.... i got addicted.....

tuesday supposed to meet after school for some important stuff.... in the end din go... cos i have to go home early to look after my sister.. she's home alone... went home with mike and regina... mike comin over to do up his blog... regina lives near me... in the end she came over... ask me help her finish a battle on FFTA.... well.. did it in mere minutes while she took more than 2 hours and still cant finish him off.. that night i sent good night msg to almost everybody in my contacts list.... wow... think around 7 ppl actually forgot hu i am... too bad... reminded some... left some guessing....in the evening play game halfway papa come snatch from me... give me 5 bucks tell me go downstairs buy tou hua.... diaoz... den he himself go on IRC.... can you guys believe that my 43 year old dad still get on irc....?

wednesday woke up early... ready to go to school do some serious business.... in the end cos of rain whole thing cancelled... too bad... after school liang zhi treat me go eat egg tart... nice nice... thanks zhi zhi.... he also lent me 10 cents go photocopy something... or else Mr Loo come after my blood... stupid toilet....

my aunt came back.... looked at the food on the table.... she showed some face to my grandma... ate some... and asked me go buy macdonalds.... papa used this time to snatch the com from me again... this time he uses it to play game... aiyo... hahaz... grabbed 20 piece nuggets... large milo... large fries... mchicken and 6 different types of sauces... look how greedy we are.... the pig blood dwell in the lim family....

michael passed me royal rumble today.... still haven got a chance to watch it.... maybe later...? it rained again.... so nice... no thunder... feels like peaceful tears to me.... reminds me of something.... haiz... when you're hated by someone so much that they give the kind of expression that you killed her entire family when your name is mentioned... you'll start to hate your life... im still smining... but i doubt for long....

today's colour:see some light at the end of the tunnel.... but seems so faint...

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