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im back...
after 1 week... first my events... den my emotions... here goes...sunday... din manage to wake up for WoE... din go tuition... went grandma house... long long time never go le...monday had school... after that went home... nothing much... evn if something had happen i have forgotten about it...tuesday had school... after school the guys went soccer... again... i went to work with wee kiat... slacker job... $7 per hour... sit in office copy address onto a form... that simple... worked for 6 hours.. in the end ran out of forms... went home...wednesday reported back to work... copied again... finished it by 2... sat down and talked with joanne's grandma to 3... always find it fun to sit down with an experienced person and learn about his or her past... boss haven prepare the stuff needed for us to work on... so we slack, and still get pay... lol.... great job... only God can give us this kinda job... slacker and yet good pay... thank you Lord...thursday had meeting... whole morning rotted at home... met at 5 with zhizhi and wee kiat to plan for cell group... after that went home... too tired to hang out...friday qin ching came my house to practice guitar... for cell group... she's leading praise and worship... did a rather good job too... /no1 for qin ching... my di's friends also came over for mahjong... lol... nothing much...saturday went to church... went there early to practice guitar... do some last min practice... after that clerence and alex came... had fun during cell... they laugh till peng... can see very clear that clerence and alex's face go really red... had real fun... tried my best during praise and worship... got abit messed up... but im improving... jia you ken!!after that was sermon... they have live recording!! i forgot!! din gel up my hair!! oh no... ah well... i still look good... at least to God... =p... pastor shared about goodness... i trust derek to post up on zealot's blog... please refer for any questions...dinner... and i can see 2 people fighting cold war... was blessed with dinner... yayayay!! i love zealot... *hugs*on the way home... was trying to solve conflicts between 2 old friends... din go well in the end... hope they will be understanding...now... for my emotions.....choppy... mixed up... confused inside... my childishness may be a joy to some... but also irritation to others...? so what should i be...? a hypocrite...? kee siao in one group and act cool act mature in another...? im not sure what this is... but i feel this is lying... hypocrtism... dunno how to spell... ah well... just be myself...even as i work... i felt tireness... creeped up on me... lingered in me... im falling down... dragging into the abyss of destruction... neglecting God... have to pull myself back up...i feel so confused now... support is everywhere... but how come i cant find one to lean on...? do i not trust the stability of the supports...? i know who to go to when im down... but why am i not going...? what am i doing...? as i layed by my bed... allowing the river of emotions to flow... riding back the chain of memories... experiencing the pain, joy, laughter, peace, anger... all yet once again... recalling betrayals, encouragements, hurts, love...and i recalled a song... so i look to you... the prechorus... "i look into the skies above, wondering how my life have changed, wondering what the Lord have done for me." i let the memories float back into my mind... and i began to cry... from before i accepted christ... till now... look at how my life have changed!! soso much... so much he have done for me... my tears flowed... thank you Lord...i wanted to post my personal testimony here... but it'll be long... and i prefer to share in person... wanna know come find me....so, current emotion...? perplexed... let me sort out my emotions...today's colour: perplexed...
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another saturday night...
the time says sunday cos it's late into the night... feeling inspirational right now... here goes my days....tuesday... school as usual... after that went yew tee MRT with alvin to make ATM card... he lost his whole bag when working... poor alvin... after that he came my house use com... den we go BK meet up with zhizhi and wee kiat... cell meeting... discuss our cell's direction... shall not reveal anything here...wednesday... school... went grandpa house swept up the house... home... loads of RO... period...thursday a very long day... had school... after that went to cell meeting yet again... to discuss what's on for cell this sat... joanne took icebreaker, siew ling took praise and worship and wee kiat took word... we are letting the new as well as the long time never do de ppl do... so they can participate more in cell... yay...zhizhi was starving for that whole day... asked lele to buy him something... den she no money... in fact everybody no money!! i se him like that very poor thing... den went out to mac.. bought him a mc chicken student meal... paid via ezlink... he ate so happily!! can see he very hungry... this is one practical way to show love... lalaz...we also saw zhen yi... there's one stranger who's pestering her... keep on wanting to take her photos... asked her for her number... harrassing her... den she come and tell me... i was talking to her... den that guy walk out of guardians... zhen yi said...."there. that guy.."i looked over... that guy was first smiling... after he saw me his smile dropped... very fast... you should have looked at his face!! so funny!!like so scared... lol... im scary!! that guy stopped harassing her... and she went shopping...after that, yet again kena "pian" by alvin to go arcade... as zhizhi said, he always say go see see only den in the end talk us into playing... alvin is so good at this stuff... love him for that... played datona... i lost again... kena bang by alvin... that's why i lost... my car de steering wheel got prob... argh.. sad.... had fun.. nana also came... den watched us play... hahz...den went kfc for dinner... saw them eat... after that went home eat dinner... heh.... long day hor..?friday... no school... home.. RO... i guess... cant remember much....saturday is another long one... woke up at 11.30... panic!! rushed song sheet... den rush out... reached interchange saw one bus go off... diao..? den i see got time go photocopy song sheet... come back see another bus go off... double diaoz...? i remembered saying something... thanks ar, God... God is a joker... hahz... but it's all his wonderful plan...reached at 2... practiced praise and worship with siew ling... after that went cell group.... we had to cramp into a small lil storeroom... very cosy... hahz... joanne took icebreaker... those wearing black really suay... hahz... we took powder for bowling... those professionals use to powder their hands one... and threw at ppl.. lalah... so fun!! thanks joanne!!i guitarist.. ok.. abit gabra... ABIT... hahz... strum till hand pain... cos i keep missing.. instead of using my nails to strum i hit the string with my flesh... the parts above the nail... and it hurt... bled smile more... ah well...wee kiat shared about starting a wave... one have the power to start even a strong wave... it just takes one man to change a whole nation... how true...after that is snl.. more details please visit www.zealotontherun.blogspot.com...went old market tabao... cos beauty world now super packed... so bo bian... went to one playground eat... hahz... i din buy anything.. no money.. guessed what...? ken quak bought gan zhe for me!!! so touched!!! a love gesture... practical ways to show love...after dinner me and derek sit one corner... see joanna, ken quak, rong jun, liang zhi, wee kiat and yong quan play a stupid game.. crocodile... catcher can only stand on floor and yellow!! den they climb here climb there... looks fun... but i dun wanna play.. later the playground collapse... den boohoo!! police come find me...went home... went down esso to buy drinks... den i saw my bus... i pratically run to the next bus stop to catch it... caught it!! so happy!! sat down... air con blowing straight in my face... den uh oh...i cought a cold there.. felt like vomitting.... i endured the whole bus journey... lucky i din eat... all i vomit it all out le... hahz... that's my saturday night!!God showed me one day... how it felt like to be a leader... to plan everything so nicely out... wanted to have fun... but in the end because of lack of enthu of members everything backfired... now i know how alvin, teck soon and even liang zhi feels when we as cel members are not faithful... we wrote out all members of cell group... and picked out the faithful ones... sadly there's only 3... you know who you are...we have to push them on man... this cannot carry on...i also knew how the members feel... when they cannot come... God showed me how to symphatize... thank you Lord for opening my eyes...i've been sliding back a lil myself... seeing my own sheep fall... it's bleeding inside... so discouraged... but im hanging on... im bringing him back once more... prayers really needed...today's colour: still feeling a lil sick...
I blogged @ | 2:27 AM
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005 im happy again!!
my happy go lucky me is back... feeling so much better... now...thursday.. ermz.. go school... den... forget le!! sian... after exams still have to go back to school!! i went school... after that..... forgot le!! haz...friday also go school... got mock exams... in the end ended school at 11 something... went zhizhi's house practice for sat's cell group... practice finish le den qin ching and siew ling came zhizhi's house... prayed!! for zealot ppl, for mission ppl... woah... i felt so great praying!! i love praying!!! woohoo!!! it gives you the motivation to pray more... a heart of compassion... and a loving soul... that's the by-product of prayer!! and only the by-product!! imagine the full product!!! after that watched the myth... dvd version... (pirated... sshhh...) kinda nice... but a very very stupid ending... enjoyed the fellowship... we had good good times!!!after that i rushed home... went hougang.... stayed over there... played dota... owned alex... hahz... den went his house... he bought red wine!! drank... den played... den slept... practically do nothing but slack... missed guild wars... and we lost our castles!! but... haiz....next morning alex got hangover.... ertz... shouldn't have drunk... he cant even walk straight... den bo bian... cant come church... i went myself... cell group combined with zealot 2... had good good times... great great fun!!1 but i have to dance in front of the ACTStablishers!!! it was stupid... after cell... snl... den go westmall mac... ate dinner... den......"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEREK!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!" happy birthday derek!! got a cake... prayed for him... and spent good good times!!! after that went arcade... have fun... and went home...my house also have a new "maria" on sat... cos need someone to take care of me grandma... means no need wash dishes and mop floor!! yay!!sunday woke up late... timmies din call me to fight war... ah well... got 1 castle!! now my wiz is hunting hydras... needa get cards for the guild... and... nothing much happened...?monday went school.... again... sian... a math... den went home... they wanted to meet at around 4 to go jp de seoul garden eat... celebrate derek's birthday... but i no money... so sorry derek!! forgive me!!! stayed at home and played RO... that's pretty sums up my days....bafore i go... let you guys see what im playing all ay long!!! one of my old pics... this is the old payon... i missed the old payon so much... i actually saw a bapho jr, a pet, with a same name as me!! so cute!!today's colour: nothing much lahz...
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Saturday, October 15, 2005 .....
not in the mood... update some other time...and my song is gone....today's colour: .....
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Thursday, October 13, 2005 it's OFFICALLY over....
last post is not offical over... cos got DnT... now it's over!!!sunday did nothing... RO... that's all.... no bible study....monday... no school!!! went bowling at chevron... din play much... after that went wm played jewel fighter and lost... datona and flunked.. i better stick to initial D....tuesday the last paper... DnT... super super easy... sleep ar.... went home without my hp... cos i forgot to take... den sab bring home... help me recharge... also check my inbox... thanks ar....wednesday.... woke up at 12... den straight away receive call from wee kiat... meeting at 1.30... woah... super last min... ah well.... went there... got back hp!! planned cell this sat... combining with zealot 2.... after that went arcade with wee kiat... cos bored and zhizhi had bible study with shara and sabrina... played jewel fighter... used ken... and this time i won!! completed the whole thing.... after that went down and find zhi again... he finished his bible study... and taught geogiana and hui fang maths... he teach also teach until gabra... mind blank... den i take over... dunno why... when i teach them that time i very nervous... maybe cos of giana...? manage to teach them... hahz... giana actually allowed me to teach... she forgave me...? hahz.... hope so... after that went jewel fighter again... zhi tried twice and lost... wee kiat tried and lost... i conquered it again!! woohoo... made the 4th position... maybe try again tml...ok... i do have STM... maybe i should post everyday... so i cant remember what went on...today's colour: rainbow!!!
I blogged @ | 1:25 AM
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"n" levels over!!
finally!!! it's over!!! ok lah got one last paper... Dnt... but it's nothing... hahaz...monday had english... after paper one got people declare entrance to simei liaoz... i can survive... hahz.... after 2nd paper... more people declare entrance to simei.... but i again survived!!! yay...tuesday had geography as well as math paper 1... so darn easy!!! but the first ans for math paper one is 444.... die die die.... er...? hahz... geo is not bad... my humanities no hope one lahz....wednesday no paper!!! heh.. stayed home... sweep and mop.... and study!!! went out to bk to study with thursday science paper... while people like zhizhi struggling, i have no problems with it... God's gift...? heh.... but i suck at soccer... maybe God give diff people diff gifts....friday paper 2 math.... easy... even have 45 min to sleep.... but dunno will careless anot....saturday morning WoE... got back tiantan!! and 3 other guilds.... honglou, and i dunno.... Clan risA actually have 4 guilds right now!!! but tml dunno how to defend... no cell group... alvin sick i think.... den alex din come again... 3 weeks le... so sad.... he overslept... must talk to him... church attendance only 2 from my cell... wee kiat and me.... zealot 2 had their first aniversary... hahz... nothing much...?after that dinner... and dota!!! tio own.... but still had fun... killing that stupid garra!!! hahz...nothing much... having so much fun after the N levels!! hahz... now... PIA RO!!!today's colour: eat, sleep, play!!!
I blogged @ | 12:38 AM
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tml is the 'N' levels...
it's here!!! finally... n levels... am i prepared?!? of cos i am!!! i am kenken man!!! <<<<--------- do i sound like zhizhi...?my very very last post... i'll be updating only after n levels... here goes...thursday have study leave... but my class have to go back to school to review our o levels e math prelims... ah well.... study... after that went home....friday study leave... i stayed home... tried to study.... did it for 2 hours.. slept for the rest.... hahz....oh ya right now i have to do chores... sweep and mop.... cos nobody will be free to do them... with my grandma going and do chemo and stuff, and parents accompanying her, nobody's at home to clean up... so... poor me!! and some of you guys know how big my house is!! hahz... too bad...saturday... something out of the ordinary happened.... woke up at 6.30 to WoE as usual.... but i was short of breath... bad... my asthma retriggered... pray for me ya...? that i can endure through the cold exam hall....din go for cell group... felt too sick to do so... walk abit... pant pant... my lung is working at 30% to 40%... pray.... i really need prayer...after that wanted to meet alex to go church.... agreed to meet at bb mrt at 4.30.... i kept on calling him till 5.10... he says he was doing some stuff... ookkk.... fine... come quick!! again i waited... kept on calling him again... this time it's scary.... he was spiritually attacked.... he read some satanic song lyrics.... and the devil took hold of him through that... i prayed for him over them phone and he felt better.... and... still scared... talked to him... he claimed to see 2 skulls in the clouds, staring at him, blocking the kight... SCARY!!! ah well.... prayed for him... he promised to come... 6.30 and he's still in hougang... haiz... dunno about him lahz... in the ended waited until around 9 den he reach bukit batok.... waited for 4 and a half hours... the longest time i waited for a guy... but it's ok.... he needed that...went with ah teck to mac and told him about the armor of God... his autority that God have given him.... it's time to prepare him for war.... this is spiritual warfare... skipped snl.... awww!!! someone better post the notes online!!!sunday went tuition... kuang yong lent me his k ge shu bu qin!!! thanks!! after that went bible study.... talked about revelations... it's still on revelations... hahz... learnt about the 7 plagues of the end times... total destruction!!! muahahaz!!! God is not only a loving God... he is also a righteous God... and he loved us so much that he have to pass judgement... he cant let evil carry on anymore... that's why he sometimes destroy.... after that went study.... nothing much happened...? bought zhi a capo for his birthday... he was elated.... hahz... i got the right gift then...right now just wanna rest... tml exams... i wanna be prepared.... keep smiling guys....today's colour: i got peace like a river....
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