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yet again....
another week passed.... checked and saw that only 2 ppl tagged.... im givin up..... i can count how many people actually said hi.... 16 in all... pathetic, eh....? teck soon, alvin, liang zhi, wee kiat, youngli, shara, rongjun, angela, wan yi, vincent, timmy, michelle, yun mei, joel koh, benjamin.... and another girl from shammah.... dunno her name.... well.... her greeting was heartwarming.... at least im not invisible.... the crave for warcraft is back... oh no.... think i gonna go buy liaoz.... i might blog again... den again, i might not.... who knows....? depends on my mood... bye for now.... today's colour: world is not that cold.... but still not warm enough....
I blogged @ | 2:02 PM
{Lift up your eyes, all you Heavens, and Worship}
yet again
I blogged @ | 10:52 PM
{Lift up your eyes, all you Heavens, and Worship}
sometimes i wonder.....
someone once told me that God created us for fellowship.... was so excited so hear that.... now i began to wonder....
if God created us for fellowship... then why am i so alone....? why does so people reject me....? how come im invisible....? how is it possible that when im in a bus, so fully packed that people have to stand, and the seat next to me is empty....? what's more the bus is packed with church people, not strangers..... how come whenever i ask someone out... nobody seems to be free....? why is it that i am never invited anywhere...? how come im always left in a corner....? shivering alone in the cold....? why is it that when i go up to the altar to pray, none of my cell group members joined me...? i looked around.... all have partners.... held hands and stood in a circle.... and im all alone.... felt crushed.... so crushed.... this is how you can feel alone even when you're among people you know.... but i have to thank God.... he stood beside me.... gave me his warm embrace.... at least im remembered....
after the service..... angela, shara, rongjun and wee kiat all went to eat.... leaving the rest behind.... what's this...? another time where im part of the group being left out... why is it always me....?
there are a few who saw me when im invisible.... first and foremost, God....i love you, oh Heavenly father.... second person, my mum.... always there for me.... thirdly..... liang zhi.... my brother, my mentor, any problems i can share with him freely.... lastly cynthia.... she's able to see me when im invisible.... she remembers my presence....
someone once asked.... if you were to die right now.... would you like to be remembered as a bad person or a good one....? and i started to wonder.... came to a conclusion.... i am not goin to be remembered by anyone on earth....
i'll stop bloggin.... nobody reads anyway.....
today's colour: needless to say....
I blogged @ | 3:35 PM
{Lift up your eyes, all you Heavens, and Worship}
temple is burning... temple is burning....
woohoo!!! prayer finally answered!!! let the temple BURN!!! muahahha....monday woke up with stomach ache... pain pain!!! sob sob..... still went school.... dun care lahz... but in the end so painful i cannot take it.... reported sick... den went home... miss seah carried my bag to side gate help me flag taxi xia... so touched... sob.....tuesday skipped morning run.... how to go with this kinda stomach... pain pain... cant run.... (actually it's excuse lahz.... sshhh....) den had lessons... yap....after school rushed home... it's my sister's birthday!! went to lao di fang... AGAIN.... and ate like a PIG!!! hahz.... very wierd.... mel din eat much.... he sick ar....? had chocolate cake.... please lah not the one baked in toilet lahz.... the nice creamy chocolate melted in my mouth.... so nice!!! hahz... gain weight.... getting fat.... and peiyi.... YOU'RE NOT FAT!!!!!wednesday had napfa.... i din go!! reported sick... muahaha....budden next week need to do... sian 1/2.... bo bian.... hahz... nothing much happened....thursday... another P.E. day.... full contact again.... this time my target is derek dong dong qiang.... ram here ram there.... clothesline here clothesline there... hahz... fun fun... but i kena my ribs... sprain.... so pain....during recess i kena ''cheated'' of me $10.... liang zhi tell me buy something from gb.... erm.... ok... ask them how much.... $10.... woah.... anything loh.... ''lord.... im giving it all away.... im giving it all to say i love you, say i want you Lord....'' den found out... 1 pack $1 10 packets $10!!! i buy the most.... sob sob sob sob sob!!!! but happy lahz... hahz....oh ya.... wed morning when prayer walking... zhi zhi told me that the temple has fallen... the temple at the tree one... i so happy!!! woohoo!! i wanna declare to the world!!! so excited!! woohoo!!! went for a closer inspection.... it was burnt down.... WOOHOO!!! GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYER!!! SEND FORTH FIRE AND LIGHTENING TO STRIKE IT, AND GOD SENT FIRE!! IM SO HAPPY!!! WOOHOO!! hahz... abit kee siao.... den that night dreamt of me sharing this testimony to the whole church.... hahaz.... God is moving!! children, have faith and push on!!today's colour: LET THE FIRE BURN!!! the passion for Christ.... and to burn down the temple!!
I blogged @ | 1:05 PM
{Lift up your eyes, all you Heavens, and Worship}
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