it's official, im no longer part of the family any longer.. i was offically kicked after FOC, which i din attend.. although they say im a GL wannabe, the very fact that i can no longer log into the forums is sign that i am no longer a GL.. my second alternative is to run for main committee, which will get me back into GLs.. sadly, i fell short and did not make it in.. for people who voted me, thank you very much for showing me the support.. i know you guys believed in me, that i will make myself useful in the main com, and i sincerely thank you for that.. and for people who did not vote, this post is not against you.. i know the circumstances that i created that caused me to be of rather unpopular among some of you, as i had heard gossips and as much as i distest, i will take them seriously as feedback.. thank you for all the fun that you guys gave me, it's something i will not forget so easily..

zongz asked me if i regretted going mission trip and not FOC.. frankly speaking, i did a little.. while on the team, i dun feel part of them, constantly felt out of place, felt that i wasn't really useful on the trip.. one thing that's far worse, is that i felt unimportant, that i wasn't needed, my absence would do no difference... if i were in Singapore, i would be going for FOC, get my CCA points, be in the big loving family of life science, not let my raiko down, especially Jenny.. i owe her alot due to my absence, she was constantly worried that raiko would not have enough GLs.. Jehanne as well, because of my absence, the entire chereography have to be redone to suit the number of people.. when i heard that derek was not going for mission trip, i was taken aback.. he said he din have money, and he's saving up for the next one.. perhaps i should haven taken the same option as him, and skip this one to go for the next one, as i din have enough money either.. i had to borrow money and empty out my bank account to get enough to go on this trip.. and after a few days, everything is over..

people might find it silly, how i can forsake such good things.. CCA points, friends, staying in the CCA, save money.. but everything becomes clear if you put God into the picture.. i had a command, that is to go and make disciples of all nations.. i am simply following God's instructions.. following his voice.. wholeheartedly..

my mission trip team, whom i really love.. even though sometimes there can be some misunderstandings, i still love you guys.. let's work together towards God's kingdom, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.


if you can actually remember this.. you would be pretty old, i have to say.. most people in the illustration is no longer in YI.. i managed to find this when i was digging for some CD for my dad, and found a disc of pictures.. try to make a guess who, where, when and why this is made.. =D

been such long time since an emo post. a post of how i really feels. perhaps it's a good thing that this blog does not have many readers..

today's colour : shall not be emo for too long, dun worry.. i'll be happy soon.